Wednesday, November 30, 2011

30 Nov 11 - all this talk about shitz

Stats this AM:
BP 104/58 Pulse 79 (Wonder how high I can make it go if I drink some really strong coffee)

Shitz occurred 2 times so far today and it is only 0930.  Lost a pound on the first one at 0720.  I weighed 146.0 after the morning constitutional.  Had a bowl of fake/instant oatmeal 0800 then shite again at 0815.  this one was also chunks of fecal matter in a little water.  Good shitz by my reckoning.

Spent too much time on the words with friends - like I have nothing else to do... Like doing it but it just bugs me.

Figure this one out.  My sister gave me a Messianic cross which (supposedly)  is a symbol that links Jew and Gentile, the Old and New Testaments, and Judaism and Christianity.

Now, supposedly it was my Mothers or grandmothers.  Both had one and my sister that died ended up with both.  Now my problem is that if it was my grandmothers it does not make any sense.  Supposedly she was Irish and along with her first husband came over on the boat from Ireland. City of Cork/County of Cork with a last name of McDonald.  Would that make her a catholic?  When he, the upright man that he was, abandoned her and her child (children? - only knew my mother as an only child but who really knows) in St Louis she eventually met the grandfather that I know, John Micsec(k).  He, also supposedly, was from Yugoslavia/Austria.  So I could see him being Jewish and her wanting to help mesh their beliefs.  Just a strange little tale.
Sister and I talked about the family background.
I realised how much I distrusted my brothers view or memories and how colored they were.  To bad we can't have these type of conversations.  Oh well - -such is life.

Edited on 1 Dec 11

Oh well...Maybe more a little later

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Tuesday the 24th of November 2011

Another morning, amazingly, I woke up.  Some stats you could care less about.

Blood Pressure today:  - 125 (Systolic)  over 93 (diastolic) with a heart rate of 81.      Took it a few minutes later and it was 102/68 HR 74.

Weight today is 147.4 before I took a shitz and that is the highest it has been since July 10th of 2010.  Wait until I start describing them-you will be in for a treat because the is no medical terminology I can find to describe the many variations of stools. 

Saw Dylan Dog: Dead of Night yesterday. Its the adventures of supernatural private eye, Dylan Dog, who seeks out the monsters of the Louisiana bayou in his signature red shirt, black jacket, and blue jeans.
Wasn't bad but nowhere near as it could have been. I really have become jaded..
More later maybe.. 

I'm surprised I've done this for two days in a row and wonder how long it will be before a family member finds this  (I know I not write any really mean stuff but I wanted to especially since my youngest (full blood) sister' death..  I've had the feeling I should go back through my old posts and remove any truly mean stuff.  I'll have to think about it.

Don't know if I said anything before but I am now playing "words with friends" via Facebook.  My sister, my brother-in-law, and a friend from Ca. 

This is gonna not sound nice but I hope I do not get anymore invitations to play.  At one time in my life I could of given a rats ass if I hurt someones feelings.  For some reason now I care.  I guess a shrink would have fun with that. Maybe dying has something to do with it.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Monday, the 28th of November

Well... "I" had a wonderful time with the sister, brother-in-law, and 3 kids here.  I originally thought that the sound levels would kill me but guess what?  I adapted well with only one time the doggy got to me.  Had friends come over and he just yapped and yapped and I just yelled.  Funny but the whole house got quiet and everything was good.  Guess when I yelled it released my tension.

Literally ate myself into a daze.  Was really worried that eating that much food would give me a terrible case of the diarrhea but that did not happen.  Just my normal loose watery shitz.

Heck here is a summary:
19th - Went to the bathroom 11 times - ain't that the shitz! ! !
20th - 5 times
21st - 3 times
22nd - 3 or 4 times
23rd - 4 times
24th - 8 times but I got to say it was not as bad as it looks on paper.  All the stools were thick like applesauce and/or pudding ( agood thing)
25th - 6 times
26th - 4 times
27th - 4 times.
28th - today - so far have only went once at 8 AMand it was chunks and heavily colored thick water.

Weight before I went shitz was 147.2 weight after was 146.2.  So far today I have ate only a bowl of oatmeal and a poppy seed muffin.

Also got really envious of the I-Pads my sis and bil had.  From what my wife tells we cannot afford one because I'm retired.  I guess I should have just not have had this money problem -removed because derogatory about being so poor since I retired. Oh well such is life.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Not much.."The Blessing of the Thorns"

Really not much to say.  REALLY glad my youngest sister, her husband and their 3 kids are coming to visit us over Thanksgiving.  With as much has happened to our family over the last 15 months it is a good "thing"! ! !


I'll even add this mushy story because it seem so apropos:


"The Blessing of the Thorns"
  
Sandra felt as low as the heels on her shoes as she pushed against a November gust and opened the florist shop door. Her life had been easy, like a spring breeze. Then, in the fourth month of her second pregnancy, a minor automobile accident stole her ease.

During this Thanksgiving week, she would have delivered a son. She grieved over her loss. As if that weren’t enough, her husband’s company threatened a transfer. Then, her sister, whose annual holiday visit she coveted, called to say she could not come.

What was worse, Sandra’s friend infuriated her by suggesting her grief was a God-given path to maturity that would allow her to empathize with others who suffer.

She has no idea what I’m feeling. “Thanksgiving? Thankful for what?” she wondered aloud. For a careless driver whose truck was hardly scratched when he rear-ended her? For an airbag that saved her life but took that of her child?

“Good afternoon, can I help you?”

“I....I need an arrangement,” stammered Sandra, “for Thanksgiving.”

“Do you want beautiful but ordinary, or would you like to challenge the day with a customer favorite I call the Thanksgiving Special?” asked the shop clerk. “I’m convinced that flowers tell stories. Are you looking for something that conveys gratitude this Thanksgiving?”

“Not exactly!” Sandra blurted out. “In the last five months, everything that could go wrong has gone wrong.”

Sandra regretted her outburst and was surprised when the shop clerk said, “I have the perfect arrangement for you.”

The door’s small bell rang, and the shop clerk said, “Hi, Barbara...let me get your order.” She politely excused herself and walked toward a small workroom, then quickly reappeared, carrying an arrangement of greenery, bows, and long-stemmed thorny roses.

Except the ends of the rose stems were neatly snipped...there were no flowers.

“Want this in a box?” asked the clerk.

Sandra watched for the customer’s response. Was this a joke? Who would want rose stems with no flowers? She waited for laughter but neither woman laughed.

“Yes, please,” Barbara replied with an appreciative smile. “You’d think after three years of getting the special, I wouldn't be so moved by its significance, but I can feel it right here, all over again,” she said, as she gently tapped her chest. She thanked the clerk and left.

“Uhh...” stammered Sandra, “that lady just left with, uhh...no flowers!”

“Right. I cut off the flowers. That’s the Special. I call it the Thanksgiving Thorns Bouquet.”

“Oh, come on, you can’t tell me someone is willing to pay for that?” exclaimed Sandra.

“Barbara came into the shop three years ago feeling very much like you feel today. She thought she had very little to be thankful for. She had lost her father to cancer, the family business was failing, her son was into drugs, and she was facing major surgery.”

“That same year I had lost my husband,” continued the clerk, “and for the first time in my life, I had to spend the holidays alone. I had no children, no husband, no family nearby, and too great a debt to allow any travel.”

“So, what did you do?” asked Sandra.

“I learned to be thankful for thorns,” answered the clerk quietly. “I’ve always thanked God for good things in life and never thought to ask Him why those good things happened to me, but when bad stuff hit, did I ever ask! It took time for me to learn that dark times are important. I always enjoyed the “flowers” of life, but it took “thorns” to show me the beauty of God’s comfort. You know, the Bible says that God comforts us when we’re afflicted, and from His consolation we learn to comfort others.”

Sandra sucked in her breath as she thought about the very thing her friend had tried to tell her. “I guess the truth is I don’t want comfort. I’ve lost a baby and I’m angry with God.”

Just then someone else walked in the shop.

“Hey, Phil!” shouted the clerk to the balding, rotund man.

“My wife sent me in to get our usual Thanksgiving arrangement...twelve thorny, long-stemmed stems!” laughed Phil as the clerk handed him a tissue-wrapped arrangement from the refrigerator.

“Are those for your wife?” asked Sandra incredulously. “Do you mind me asking why she wants something that looks like that?”

“No...I’m glad you asked,” Phil replied. “Four years ago, my wife and I nearly divorced. After forty years, we were in a real mess, but with the Lord’s grace and guidance, we slogged through problem after problem. He rescued our marriage. Jenny here told me she kept a vase of rose stems to remind her of what she learned from “thorny” times and that was good enough for me. I took home some of those stems. My wife and I decided to label each one for a specific problem and give thanks to Him for what that problem taught us.”

As Phil paid the clerk, he said to Sandra, “I highly recommend the special!”

“I don’t know if I can be thankful for the thorns in my life.” Sandra said to the clerk. “It’s all too...fresh.”

“Well, my experience has shown me that thorns make roses more precious. We treasure God’s providential care more during trouble than at any other time. Remember, it was a crown of thorns that Jesus wore so we might know His love. Don’t resent the thorns.”

Tears rolled down Sandra’s cheeks. For the first time since the accident, she loosened her grip on resentment. “I'll take those twelve long-stemmed thorns, please,” she managed to choke out.

“I hoped you would,” said the clerk gently. “I'll have them ready in a minute.”

“Thank you. What do I owe you?” asked Sandra.

“Nothing.” said the clerk. “Nothing but a promise to allow God to heal your heart. The first year’s arrangement is always on me.” She smiled and handed a card to Sandra.

“I'll attach this card to your arrangement, but maybe you’d like to read it first.”

Sandra took the card and read, “Dear God, I have never thanked You for my thorns. I have thanked You a thousand times for my roses, but never once for my thorns. Teach me the glory of the cross I bear; teach me the value of my thorns. Show me that I have climbed closer to you along the path of pain. Show me that, through my tears, the colors of your rainbow look much more brilliant. ~George Matheson”

Jenny said, “Happy Thanksgiving, Sandra,” handing her the special. “I look forward to knowing each other better.”

Sandra smiled. She turned, opened the door, and walked toward hope.

Praise Him for the roses; thank Him for the thorns. God bless all of you. Be thankful for all that the Lord does for you.

*the author of this piece is unknown